Pondering & Pet Peeves

So lately, I've been pondering a lot about life and where I'm going in it. I feel like some people make it easy and some people make it hard for me to decide what's next for me.

Lately, I've been evaluating some of my friendships. Or perhaps I should say "relationships." One of the biggest pet peeves I have (other than bad drivers and people touching my pillow lol) is when people just up and decide they aren't going to talk to me anymore or ignore me. I hate, hate, hate that and it makes it easy for me to just say, "Well, I guess that's it." I understand that this is a busy world, and we are all busy in it. But goodness! When you build a relationship with someone and then just cut it off for no reason (in many different avenues), it makes me wonder what the heck happened when I have no clue. It sucks, to be frank.

I don't quite understand people like that. I know I'm not the best at always communicating, but I'll be honest with you. If I'm going to cut you off, I'll let you know why. I can promise that. It's the adult thing to do, right? Talk about your issues and the such.

Judgmental people bother me. I can honestly say that I don't care what your background is, what you've done in your life, etc if I have a friendship and relationship with you. You are important to me and I will be there for you. I don't judge and I say that whenever anyone comes to me with something to talk about or share. I care more about the person than what they've done or what has happened. That's just how I am.

However, it does bug me when I get judged for the decisions I make in my life. There is no perfect person in this world, so we have no right to judge one another. All I want is to be loved unconditionally for who I am not judged on what I choose to do.

Every decision, every path I've chosen has brought me to where I am today and will lead me to where I'm going in the future. That may be near or far away, but either way, I care the deepest for my true friends and family. Those are the ones I know will respect me enough to love me and talk to me when something is bothering them about me, specifically. They don't judge, they just love. If you aren't going to love me and talk to me when you are bothered or you judge me, then maybe you don't respect our "relationship" enough for it to carry on.